Day-23: EXPECTATIONS
My husband has been saying this for 20 years, that throw the word expectation out of your dictionary and you will be a happier person. I wouldn’t say it hasn’t changed me, it surely has, but, am I 100% free from the bondages of expectations-NO.
I realize it’s value all the more now when I look back, my expectations from kids-made me a disciplinarian-which the kids didn’t like, My expectations of self made me a robot and I never realized that I have never loved myself and only loved others and on the contrary, when I think-How can anyone love me when I don’t love myself??
My elder daughter 2 years ago taught me the value of Self-Love and I am still not there 100% though, the pursuit continues.
Life has taken a 360 degree shift and the first thing that I have made very clear to myself is -It is my journey-with NO EXPECTATIONS from anyone and this feels lighter.
I win some, I loose some and each day brings in new wonders and new life to it and I take all in a stride. I have never witnessed myself in this light ever before, the rapid changes in energies and the energy work that is making these changes is extremely awesome.
So many POVs are melting and so many new IPOVs are shaping up, I am easier on myself, kids, work, home and getting Out of Control is extremely relaxing majorly. No rigidities, no decisions for the kids, no expectations from myself on how much I desire to earn each month??
Really…like really, is it me talking or is it a newer, improved version of me…. I am deciphering each day.
Kids say, I am becoming a reflection of Dad…well I don’t how how much of that is true and even 20% of me is him, and the remaining is me, I feel yeah!!! I am treading a path so unknown and yet, so known…and this I will cherish for life.